Miss FD

Miss FD's 3rd Studio Album - Comfort for the Desolate - Out Now

Miss FD — Tue, 18 Jun 2013 00:42:28 -0400

Miss FD's 3rd studio album, Comfort for the Desolate, is officially released through Quantum Release Records on June 18th, 2013.

Comfort for the Desolate is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, iTunes, Bandcamp, and other digital music outlets.

COMFORT FOR THE DESOLATE

Tracklist:
01- Never Felt Better
02- Wanting Is Not Enough
03- Dissolve
04- Consciousness of Awe
05- Lover of Fate
06- Incompleteness
07- The Grand Version

Release Date:

June 18th, 2013

Type:

6 page digipack

Label:

Quantum Release Records

Order Number:

QRR011

UPC:

884501886536

Purchase:

Sentience.

Miss FD — Wed, 29 May 2013 17:05:40 -0400

Time shared with those whose presence we value is never time wasted, I want to tell him. It is time sensibly (and often painfully) invested in enriching the spectrum of our appreciation for shared experiences.

What are we, if not a collection of tragically beautiful stories made up of individual moments consciously perceived? Are these moments not so much more vibrant and significant when, even if for a moment, a sense of togetherness can be reciprocally shared?

But the moment passes, the connection is lost, and the words instead become just another set of grey pixels against a black screen.

Except that pixels do not convey the essence of glances ephemerally captured within defining moments which, intimately and irrevocably, express the inexpressible.

Miss FD releasing 3rd studio album "Comfort for the Desolate"

Miss FD — Mon, 20 May 2013 20:36:33 -0400

On June 18th, 2013, dark synthpop artist Miss FD returns with her third studio album Comfort for the Desolate.

Through seven new compositions of dark melodies, chilling beats and intense lyrics, FD's latest "audio diary" is the next chapter in her exploration of the nature of existence, consciousness, our concepts of self, and presence through living in the here and now.

Comfort for the Desolate will be available in CD and digital format, the album can be pre-ordered now from www.MissFD.com.

Click here to pre-order.

Conditional comforts.

Miss FD — Wed, 03 Apr 2013 18:42:49 -0400

On days such as this one, I delude myself into believing that my soul-deep intrigue of the workings and possibilities of the Universe has been replaced only by the mere desire to escape mundane enslavements.

On days such as this one, in which it feels like my everything hurts, I delude myself into thinking that comfort is conditional on outside circumstances which are often beyond the reach of my influence.

But when this day has passed, I beseech I may awaken from these superficial notions, so that I may find my comforts simply within the awareness of my being.

2013 Album Release - Budget Raising

Miss FD — Sat, 30 Mar 2013 00:13:35 -0400

April 11th:

Budget raised so far: $478.16

RamAir Radio Interview

Miss FD — Sat, 02 Mar 2013 12:05:54 -0500

My goodness, I can ramble.

But here's the interview I did a few months ago with Daniel Ratcliffe for RamAir Radio.

Interview with Miss FD by Philmein on Mixcloud

Absolute Grrrls Manifesto to be released by Alfa Matrix

Miss FD — Tue, 26 Feb 2013 19:47:33 -0500

Alfa Matrix is set to release the first chapter of the "Absolute Grrrls Manifesto" compilation box series an anthology of female fronted bands from the alternative / underground music scene and its various subgenres (gothic metal, new wave, industrial, pop rock, electro, synth pop, EBM, techno...). This 4 CDs collection (plus a 40-song additional soundcard) presents 111 bands in a deluxe carton box with an extensive 32-page booklet designed by Oliver Haecker, with photos from all featured bands and an essay about the place of women in the music industry.

"Absolute Grrls Manifesto" reminds us how proud we can all be to have so many brilliant female composers, writers, singers, poets, and artists, who all contribute so many gifts to the music scene! Sensibility, femininity, sexiness, power, wit, passion: it's all in there!! Let these female voices shine through their diversity and rule your ears for the next 500+ minutes.

Empusa's and Miss FD's collaboration song "Dignity" is included in the 40-song additional download card of the Absolute Grrrls Manifesto.

Valentine�s Day: Miss FD releases single and video for �Cry For You (Haunted)�

Miss FD — Thu, 14 Feb 2013 00:00:43 -0500

For all of us who have loved, and lost...

On February 14th, Valentine's Day 2013, Miss FD commemorates the three-year mark of the loss of the person who inspired the album Love Never Dies, as well as the two-year anniversary of the album's release, with the debut of a new performance of the track "Cry For You".

Entitled "Cry For You (Haunted)", this version features a haunting piano performance by Robert Dante, and is accompanied by a nostalgic music video directed by Adam Alvarez, filmed at Hollywood Events, in Hollywood, FL.

"Cry For You (Haunted)" is available as a digital download from Bandcamp, Amazon MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

February 14th: Cry For You (Haunted)

Miss FD — Mon, 11 Feb 2013 22:11:25 -0500

Essence of self.

Miss FD — Thu, 10 Jan 2013 16:57:28 -0500

Although I recognize my higher consciousness as the silent observer within myself, while we are physically present at a specific point in time, we manifest into existence the personality traits which actively represent us as individuals.

What are the characteristics of the personality that youve manifested within your lifetime which you feel currently best define you as an individual?

Which traits of your personality do you feel are conditional of the circumstances around you and which do you feel are the closest to an honest reflection of whom you genuinely believe yourself to identify with as an individual regardless of outside factors?

If you were to wake up tomorrow in a different time or a different world, what character traits would you continue to choose to manifest? Do you think you would change your personality, forms of self manifestation, or values at all?

Dream: December 21st, Winter Solstice

Miss FD — Sat, 22 Dec 2012 09:54:44 -0500

Distance isn't a measure of space, it's a measure of resistance.

Resistance: Density (of energy field?) between any connecting points.

Blurred.

Miss FD — Wed, 05 Dec 2012 22:05:26 -0500

Some days I just want to distort all the light around me until I am barely visible. Inconceivably seen through the corners of eyes, only to be gone before the vision is validated. [...]

Frazzled Disaster.

Miss FD — Sun, 25 Nov 2012 11:35:35 -0500

I am free to express myself as I am at every moment that I am. If that means that my sense of sadness may come through on some days more than others, then so be it. It is honest expression, as opposed to suppression in order to try to live up to the ideas that anyone else may have of me.

Events in our lives do have an effect on how we feel/perceive the world around us and as individuals, we are always transforming. If I happen to be going through a phase in which I am allowing myself to feel as I do and somehow that comes across to others who have known me through previous manifestations of myself as looking tired, beaten by life, and frazzled, so be it. I am not under any obligation to try to live up to a previous version of myself, simply to meet anyone else's expectations of whom they believe me to be.

Yes, my sadness may come through these days more obviously than in the past, and yes, it might be accurate that at this moment I may look "tired". And that is because I do indeed feel exhausted.

Does that mean that I consider myself to be "beaten by life"? Absolutely not. It simply means that I am okay with allowing myself to feel as I do, until I feel differently. I am still present and still aware of my own choices. Beauty does not have only one form of manifestation.

A heartfelt Thanksgiving.

Miss FD — Thu, 22 Nov 2012 19:20:16 -0500

I am grateful for having things to be grateful for every single day that I am consciously aware. The Universe has bestowed upon my life innumerable blessings and privileges which I do not take for granted. Even in my darkest moments, I am still fully aware of how incredibly fortunate I am for having even the seemingly most basic comforts in life, such as access to clean water, clean air, and a safe place to sleep in.

As romantic as it may seem to nostalgically think of previous times in which life to some seemed "simpler", I am incredibly grateful to exist during a period of time in which society continues to strive to move forward with its desire to provide justice and well-being for all.

We are far from living in a perfect social system still, but that does not mean that our progress should be taken for granted. As superficial as it may seem to state this, I live in a society in which I am free to have pink hair, dress in black, wear short skirts, and wear corsets because I choose to, and not because I am under any obligation to. Unfortunately, even during current times, there are many who are not free to make even such superficial choices.

It is indeed incredibly heart-breaking and completely disappointing to see some societies during present times, spiraling back towards structures of inequality between the sexes, oppression, and downright barbaric and unjustifiable actions against other human beings. Actions and belief systems which betray the basic principle of respecting and honoring human lives.

Which is why, despite its flaws, I am grateful for the privilege and honor of being an American and of living in The United States of America, a country which separates state and religion and in which despite the passing of laws which we may not always agree with, it still is possible for our voices to be heard, as we still live under a constitution which makes it possible for individuals to appeal for change.

Memories within minds disintegrate with time.

Miss FD — Mon, 15 Oct 2012 18:41:22 -0400

Maybe it's the manifestation of a desire to feel that our lives are relevant, that our existence has an impact, that we are somehow significant, in an otherwise seemingly meaningless unfolding of events. The conviction to not forget, to love beyond departure, to have stories etched onto our souls, as if we could through these, defy mortality.

Let bygones be bygones, they say.

Its the present moment in which our existence manifests, with each breath the privilege of a new conscious opportunity to experience whatever it is that this, around us is.

~~Still, I find myself feeling unable to find resolution, still unable to come to terms with, still tormented by events that can no longer be altered.~~

~~Still questioning, still wondering, still reliving, still reimagining~~

~~There was no hesitation. No day or two of consideration. No granting of a moment alone to come to terms with and let me see the~~

In the grander scheme of things, does my torment make any difference in the outcome of events? Of course it doesnt. Do I have a choice to simply let go of it? Of course I do.

Choice. A matter of perspective, at best.

I could tell myself this story all over again. Changing the perspective through which the story was experienced and therefore the tone in which the story is retold.

Or I could forget the story altogether. Memories within minds all disintegrate with time anyway.

*12:41pm power outage.

The words disappear from the screen, but the feelings within do not subside.

Until this frame of awareness is no longer our reference for reality.

Miss FD — Thu, 11 Oct 2012 17:02:29 -0400

Our days within this form of physical manifestation are numbered. Whatever else may or may not be past our time here, is at best, uncertain. Even if it could possibly be so that our departure from this physical plane of manifestation could portend to a continuation of consciousness free of our physical limitations, how free of the chains of our physical illusions are ghosts really, when they may never again physically hold the hand and feel the warmth of those whom they've left behind?

It's a rare opportunity that we have, for a limited time, to share and experience the present moment with others here. Even if it could possibly be so that there may ever be a return by our souls to this plane, past our physical departure, circumstances will never be the same. What we have here is completely ephemeral, every moment rapidly dissolving out of grasp and out of existence, forever.

Miss FD Releases Music Video for Halloween Single �Down in the Dungeon�

Miss FD — Tue, 02 Oct 2012 20:13:54 -0400

Shot at Undergrounds Coffeehaus in Ft. Lauderdale, FL, the Down in the Dungeon music video was produced by Adam Alvarez.

Miss FD's "Down in the Dungeon" Halloween single is available as a digital release from Bandcamp, Amazon MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Miss FD's New Halloween Single "Down in the Dungeon" Out Now

Miss FD — Mon, 17 Sep 2012 21:29:57 -0400

Continuing the same holiday tradition of last year's spooky single "Love Magick" (and its zombie-filled music video), dark electro-pop artist Miss FD has brewed up another Halloween treat in the form of the playfully wicked gothpop track "Down in the Dungeon".

Featuring original cover art by comic book artist Chandra Free (THE GOD MACHINE), the single will also be accompanied by a music video, premiering October 1st on FEARnet.com. The video was produced by Adam Alvarez, who also helmed the "Love Magick" clip, as well as videos for FD's "Moment of Fade" and "Infatuated".

"Down in the Dungeon" is available as a digital release from Bandcamp, Amazon MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Behind the Scenes: Down in the Dungeon Music Video Shoot

Miss FD — Sun, 19 Aug 2012 13:47:14 -0400

Miss FD's 2012 Halloween Single - Down in the Dungeon

Miss FD — Sat, 18 Aug 2012 16:51:25 -0400

It's only August, but I'm already hard at work conjuring this year's Halloween themed single, Down in the Dungeon.

The cover artwork for the single has been illustrated by Chandra Free, author and illustrator of The God Machine [comic book], who has once again done a fantastic job with the cover artwork this year.

"Down in the Dungeon" will be released on September 17th, 2012, with a music video following shortly after.

June 29th, 2012 @ The Green Room, Ft. Lauderdale

Miss FD — Mon, 13 Aug 2012 20:45:09 -0400

Live performance at The Green Room, in Ft. Lauderdale, FL with special guest Robert Dante joining me on stage.

Photos by Seraphims Photography.

Electric.

Miss FD — Fri, 03 Aug 2012 18:38:42 -0400

This afternoon's lightning storms reminded me of last night's dreams.

I dreamt that I was in lightning and that lightning was running through me. And it was fantastic.

Metamorphosis.

Miss FD — Fri, 03 Aug 2012 18:28:03 -0400

We write the stories of our own lives. How we choose to tell the stories defines how we experience them.

Once we become aware that we are the dreamers of the dream, then we are free to allow ourselves to dream a beautiful dream.

June - Friday 29th - Live in Ft. Lauderdale, FL

Miss FD — Mon, 25 Jun 2012 20:08:28 -0400

South Florida: I'll be playing a short set next Friday, June 29th at The Green Room in Ft. Lauderdale. This is going to be a very different set from any of the shows I've played in the past, with special guest Robert Dante (who played the guitars on the Infatuated single) joining me on stage. We go on at 7:30pm, so make sure to get there early if you'd like to catch our set.

Friday, June 29, 2012
$15 - Doors at 7:00pm

Green Room Nightclub
109 SW 2nd Ave
Fort Lauderdale, FL 33312

iVardensphere
W.A.S.T.E.
ESA
END THE DJ
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Facebook Event Page

Waves and particles (from delight to delirium).

Miss FD — Tue, 12 Jun 2012 23:25:12 -0400

I don't think I'd like to eat a sunrise, but I'd like to eat moonlight. [...]

At the speed of light.

Miss FD — Tue, 12 Jun 2012 20:42:34 -0400

Why must light always be traveling? [...]

Inaccessible.

Miss FD — Tue, 12 Jun 2012 19:08:55 -0400

There isn't a day which goes by in which I don't wonder how it's possible that I am conscious. Regardless of what the definition of "I" might actually be, it is still rather clear that I possess some manner of reflective awareness, limited as it might be. And that the origin of the manifestation of this awareness that has come to be, regardless of whether or not it may continue past the manifestation of the physical existence that we currently recognize, may always remain a mystery, is rather tormenting. Although solace may be found through humble acceptance, still we desire to comprehend and expand beyond the capacity of the reach of our minds, despite the notion that due to the limitations of our perception, an accurate interpretation of truth may always remain inaccessible.

Miss FD's ideal vocal processor for live shows.

Miss FD — Mon, 28 May 2012 21:36:25 -0400

What is it with audiowarez companies being so stingy with the number of knobs and sliders they include on hardware these days? I'd like a good vocal FX processor for live shows with enough physical knobs to give me easy access to control parameters, without having to click on endless combinations of the same 3 buttons and 2 knobs, and having to go through complicated screens in order to modify each effect within a preset.

And sure, I'm aware that most vocal processors allow you to save presets that you can switch to in between songs, but that pretty much kills any chance of a more dynamic interaction with the effects during live performances.

Life is.

Miss FD — Sat, 12 May 2012 21:04:53 -0400

Nothing needs to follow. Life simply is.

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My Dad asked me some days ago: "Isn't life beautiful?"

I thought about it for a moment and responded with: "Life is".

My response wasn't in agreement (or disagreement) with "beautiful", but simply that "life is".

Beautiful, or any other description of it is subjective, a matter of perspective. The only notion that we can be certain of is that we simply are.

The graveness of gravity.

Miss FD — Sat, 28 Apr 2012 14:40:47 -0400

Sometimes when I have anxiety before a photo shoot, I do handstands and other ridiculous things.

Don't mind the holes and scratches in the background, those were just from the guys throwing axes at the wall.

Photo by Samantha Guss Photography.

Hot...

Miss FD — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 23:59:42 -0400

As I was preparing the press release for the Infatuated music video tonight, five firetrucks showed up outside of my residence.

I can only assume they were anticipating that my new video will be super hot.

Miss FD Releases Music Video for Electro-Rock Single �Infatuated�

Miss FD — Mon, 23 Apr 2012 23:21:04 -0400

Miss FD took her dark electro sound in a whole new direction by turning up the heat with the release of the electro-rock single "Infatuated", a siren song that weaves her trademark pulsing beats & sensual melodies with the threatening guitar licks of Robert Dante. Now FD and director Adam Alvarez have summoned up the enticing visuals for that track, blending the futuristic sheen of black latex with a vintage backdrop of Gothic scarlet to seduce the eye as well as the ear. The video for "Infatuated" was filmed in West Palm Beach, and makes its world premiere today.

"Infatuated" is available as a digital release from Amazon.com MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Full beyond measure.

Miss FD — Sun, 15 Apr 2012 07:28:15 -0400

Rise galaxy, rise
So that I may awaken to your radiance
Before our sun kindles
and blinds the world all over again.

Teaser, teaser on the screen...

Miss FD — Mon, 09 Apr 2012 20:38:33 -0400

Music video teaser for "Infatuated".

Directed by Adam Alvarez.

Latex dresses by Collective Chaos Designs.

Do I perceive myself to be trapped within my own consciousness?

Miss FD — Tue, 13 Mar 2012 21:35:30 -0400

It's mostly a question regarding the concept of self.

Even if I believe that I am capable of extending my mind's reach beyond physical limitations, the perceptions are still being filtered through my perspective.

I may believe that I am part of everything, connected to everything, the stars, clouds, the wind... but were it not due to the awareness of my own consciousness and my ability to perceive this reality through my own view, would my sense of self still exist outside of this specific manifestation of consciousness? Do I believe that this affects the essence of self that I currently identify with or is it simply enough to know that my existence, in whichever form it manifests, simply is?

*March 19th edit:

The answers to these question became seemingly more attainable to me after experiencing a dream in which I became aware of my consciousness without any physical attachments to my awareness. Once the physical attachments were removed from my awareness in the dream, these were the realizations that followed:

My mind is only a filter.

My interpretations are only ephemeral reflections of my currently perceived state of consciousness.

Under my "current" perspective (which continually changes, but I simply have to filter the ideas as they come), eternal thoughts/ ideas are not within my mind, but simply are.

Although eternal ideas are not in my mind but simply are, I may use my current manifestation of mind as a tool to access these.

In relinquishing the desire to possess or give my ego any credit for finding the answers within my mind, as if these could belong to me, I am able to let go of superficial notions that keep me from experiencing the essence of truth.

Behind the Scenes: Infatuated Music Video Shoot

Miss FD — Mon, 05 Mar 2012 18:52:22 -0500

Video director Adam Alvarez, production assistant Jason Bowman, and Miss FD.

Photos by Michael Cudahy, latex dresses by Collective Chaos.

Electronic Saviors Vol. 2 to be released by Metropolis Records

Miss FD — Sun, 26 Feb 2012 19:23:47 -0500

Having survived stage 2B colorectal cancer in 2008, longtime promoter and DJ Jim Semonik created the Electronic Saviors compilations to fight back the disease with the help of the goth-industrial scene.

With the first volume of the compilations, Electronic Saviors: Industrial Music To Cure Cancer, the project raised over $20K for charity.

The second volume of Electronic Saviors will be a giant 6 disc box-set including 105 Electro-Industrial artists with a total of 141 tracks.

Electronic Saviors 2: Recurrence is to be released by Metropolis Records on May 8th, 2012.

All proceeds from Vol. 2 will go to Gilda's Club/Cancer Support Community (www.gildasclub.org) and The Bone Marrow Foundation (www.bonemarrow.org).

Empusa's and Miss FD's collaboration song "You" will be included in Electronic Saviors Vol. 2.

For more information on the project, please visit www.electronicsaviors.com

Vol.2 Track Listing
.........................................

Disc 1 Shock:

1 Tenek -- A World of No Relief
2 Deathline Intl -- Inside
3 Cancerface -- Tumor Curbjob
4 Panic Lift -- Footsteps
5 The Gothsicles -- Who Wants to Join Our Super Hero Team (Right Now, Its Just Me & Jim)
6 Inertia -- Deworld (New Day Mix)
7 Santa Hates You -- Pack Your Bags Honey, We're Going To Hell! (Road Trip Remix)
8 The Azoic -- Corruption (Remix By Encoder)
9 Rein[Forced] -- Burnt
10 Deathproof -- Bitcrush
11 cyferdine -- Nova
12 Null Device -- Through Closing Eyes
13 Sonik Foundry -- Relapse
14 Left Spine Down -- Stolen Car (B&E Mix)
15 Detroit Diesel -- Under Fire
16 In Strict Confidence -- Bitter Truth
17 Edge Of Dawn -- Lucid Dreams (Standeg Remix)
18 Constance Rudert -- The Harbour Song

Disc 2 Denial:

1 Wreckcreation Featuring Dan Clark Of The Dark Clan -- No Regrets
2 Project Pitchfork -- Lament (Electronic Saviors Remix)
3 Solitary Experiments -- Immortal (Icon of coil Mix By Sebastian Komor)
4 Hypefactor -- Descriptive
5 Uberbyte Featuring Jimmy Semtex of Rein[Forced] -- Phantasm
6 Mindless Faith -- Tragedy
7 Soil & Eclipse -- The Will (Survival Mix)
8 Suicide Commando -- The Perils of Indifference (Stahlnebel vs. Black Selket Remix)
9 Lowe -- Mirage (Saviors Mix)
10 CYLiX -- I Don't Exist
11 I:scintilla -- Swimmers Can Drown (Diabolic Art Mix)
12 Inure -- This is the Life (Cryogen Second Mix)
13 TraKKtor -- Hollow Spirits
14 23RAINYDAYS -- Monster (V2)
15 Accessory -- Voran (Der Teufel im Spiegel Mix by Boole)
16 Twilight Laboratory -- Intention
17 TERRORFAKT -- Marching Into Valhalla

Disc 3 Anger:

1 System Syn -- Goddamn (Imperative Reaction Remix)
2 AD INFERNA -- A.I. DOMINION
3 Boole -- Walpurgisnacht
4 Ego Likeness -- Infidel
5 Binary Park -- Worlds Collide (Saviors mix)
6 Die Sektor -- The Just Will Be Silenced
7 Stiff Valentine -- Suicide Execute
8 head-less -- Punish Your Head (Mental Discipline Remix)
9 Ludovico Technique -- This Life (Lexincrypt remix)
10 Psy'Aviah -- Sweet Hard Revenge (Fallon Nieves Rendition)
11 Aesthetic Perfection -- The Devils Is In The Details (Sthilmann Remix)
12 Terminal Choice -- Fight the System (Rabia Sorda Mix)
13 Diverje -- Suffer this world (Centhron Remix)
14 am.psych -- My Enemy
15 The Rain Within -- The Other Side
16 UCNX -- The Innocent ($150 Remix by Idiot Stare)
17 Jon Zaremba -- Snakes, You Get Out Of Here! This Is Not Your Room, This Is My Room. Now, You Just Get Out Of Here!

Disc 4 Bargaining:

1 The Mighty Chouffe -- Always This Heart
2 Angels On Acid -- Satellite
3 Terrolokaust -- Thirsty (V2.0)
4 Ashbury Heights -- Decent Cancer
5 God Module -- The Great Commandment
6 Bella Morte -- Lost
7 Encoder -- Shadows
8 Alter Der Ruine -- Ghosts (Swank Version)
9 Militant -- Sabotage
10 Ghost & Writer -- Hurricane (Splitter Mix)
11 iVardensphere -- Chasing The Dragon (Lost Tribe Version)
12 Spetsnaz -- Satiric Strokes
13 Decree -- Come and See
14 SD6 -- These Days (Single Mix)
15 Distorted Memory -- Hand Of God (Iszoloscope Remix)
16 Cryogen Second -- Thirty Eight (Featuring Sarah Chenoweth of Synapse)
17 Trigger10d -- Puddlehopping (Alternate Mix by Todd Aeschliman)
18 Life Cried -- Another Sacrifice (Rejected)

Disc 5 Depression:

1 Mesh -- You'll Never Understand (Harder)
2 Dark Clan -- Sick As Love
3 Caustic -- 1984 (Was A Very Bad Year)
4 16 Volt -- Burn (Father Dub Mix)
5 Empusa Featuring Miss FD -- You
6 Everything Goes Cold -- King of the Impossible (Signal Drums Mix By The Dark Clan)
7 Unit:187 -- Second Class Citizen (JFS Mix) by Ken Hiwatt Marshall)
8 Blutengel -- Where Will You Be?
9 AimOniA -- Surrender
10 Patricia Wake Feat Dan Clark, Lane Ellen, John Verbos, and Jolexx -- Your Love, My Medicine
11 EsperMachine -- Dying Life
12 boxed warning -- Paralyzed For Sleep
13 Reaxion Guerrilla -- Imperfexion Humana (Radio PerVersion)
14 Cesium 137 -- From Within (xrayhead Mix)
15 Retrogramme -- Share The Cancer
16 N.T.T -- If This Body Should Fail Me
17 Necrotek -- Beyond Death

Disc 6 Acceptance:

1 Covenant Feat Necro Facility -- Lightbringer (Speedrun II)
2 Sensuous Enemy -- Re:Mission
3 Neuroactive -- Never Felt Better (Recovery Mix)
4 Nachtmahr -- Can't you feel the beat (Nitronoise Remix)
5 Ayria Feat Jimmerz Semtex of Rein[Forced] & Jimmerz Cookas of I:Scintilla -- Blue Alice (Jims Of The Flesh Mix)
6 Syrian -- Speed of Light (T3chn0ph0b1a Remix)
7 Decoded Feedback -- Resilience
8 Obscenity Trial -- Üebers Wasser Gehen ([:SITD:] Remix)
9 XuberX -- Terrible Strength
10 Monody -- InBetween (Irradiated Mix)
11 Hocico -- Embraced By The Light
12 ThouShaltNot -- New Year (A Heartbeat From The End)
13 FGFC820 -- The Heart Of America (Dräcos Mix)
14 Interface -- Inner Light (Featuring Liebchen)
15 Terror Firma Sky -- Music For Medicinal Purposes
16 Agnes Wired For Sound -- Silicone Sheets
17 Society Burning -- I Am The Man
18 DYM -- Tumor

Haunted by tragically delicious dreams.

Miss FD — Wed, 22 Feb 2012 21:26:33 -0500

Tormented by a pressing feeling that a crucial piece of information is still missing. Does the notion stem from insightful intuition or merely from wishful thinking? [...]

Consequence of awareness.

Miss FD — Wed, 15 Feb 2012 21:20:46 -0500

Just because I won't miss this moment, doesn't mean I should not appreciate it while I am living it. This is the life I have, this is the moment I am experiencing, the present is my only chance to find comfort within my existence. [...]

Reactions.

Miss FD — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 08:05:04 -0500

Nothing in this life is "mine" anyway.
I exist, I will stop existing at some point.
I'll take nothing with me.
So why allow myself all this suffering?
Over all these things which shall pass at some point anyway?

Miss FD Releases Electro-Rock Single �Infatuated�

Miss FD — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 00:02:24 -0500

Dark electro artist Miss FD is back with the new single "Infatuated", a daring departure from the songwriting style of her acclaimed albums Monsters in the Industry and Love Never Dies. Accentuated by the serpentine guitar work of Robert Dante, this serving of urgent electro-rock reveals a sensuous alter ego lurking within the infectious melodies and aggressive beats of FD's signature sound.

"Infatuated" is available as a digital release from Amazon.com MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Where have the sages gone?

Miss FD — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 18:48:15 -0500

It seems more often than not that our generation is being led to believe that old age is no longer correlated with a sign of accumulated wisdom, but rather, accumulated greed and corruption.

May upcoming days prove differently.

If our paths are crossed, where do we meet?

Miss FD — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 00:14:32 -0500

I can always hope that one day, one of my super powers may turn out to be- understanding how it all tied together in my physical lifetime. Perceiving all the things that were interrelated while developing simultaneously in the background. Gaining insight into how the paths of those who played significant roles in my life unfolded, to end up intertwining with mine, from the very beginning.

Moment of Fade Video Shoot - Behind the Scenes

Miss FD — Mon, 16 Jan 2012 21:39:06 -0500

In these photos, video director Adam Alvarez, production assistant Jason Bowman, and Miss FD.

Photos by Matt Johnson.

Contradictions in our social structures.

Miss FD — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 23:12:48 -0500

On one hand, we've created social structures based on the principle that we need to give something back to the system in order to be able to receive anything from it as individuals (e.g. work in order to make a living). Yet the same system that created these social structures does not apply the same principle when taking and exploiting natural resources. We take and unnecessarily exploit to excess, but what do we do as a society and as individuals to give back to the natural system that freely provides to us all the resources that we need to survive within it?

"Infatuated" - New single release scheduled for the end of January - an alter ego for Miss FD?

Miss FD — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 11:54:06 -0500

To start off 2012, I will be releasing a new single at the end of January.

Both musically and lyrically, this song is something a bit different. Consider it... an alter ego.

The upcoming digital release features Robert Dante on guitars, who did a brilliant job on this track. How he had the patience to sit there playing every guitar part to match my meeeeowing of how I wanted every guitar slide to be is beyond me, but I'm certainly grateful for it.

Josh Smith, who also did the background visuals for my 2010 October release of the Love Magick music video, has once again done a fantastic job for the cover artwork for this release, including a rather alter ego photo taken by the amazing Dangerously Dolly.

I'm very much looking forward to releasing the new single for "Infatuated" at the end of January! ;)

Another year, another year.

Miss FD — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 00:17:29 -0500

Until another year comes and life is behind you.

You see, there is no guarantee. There is no promise that at some point things will miraculously get better. Because if you look at the general population... the majority of people are discontent. We don't live in some utopia in which everyone eventually reaches a state of contentment and happiness, it's the opposite. More people live and die miserably, yet everyone keeps on hoping. Hoping that eventually things will get better. That self-delusion we've been taught to believe in, just to be able to push ourselves through another day. The hope that one day things will finally fall into place.

From mini crush to totally crushed.

Miss FD — Thu, 22 Dec 2011 00:12:57 -0500

We try to make the best of this, whatever this is. We tell ourselves that we should enjoy our experiences, strive for accomplishments, aim to reach for a glimpse of understanding, tell ourselves stories about finding meaning in love...

Machines. We are just machines created within the star factory of the Universe.

On neon.

Miss FD — Sun, 11 Dec 2011 17:58:50 -0500

Sometime 2009. From all the times I asked him about neon, a concept and moment immortalized in a notepad file.

(12:52:18 AM) < kitten>: Well, that gets into a whole bunch of love, loss, and neon.
(12:53:01 AM) < kitten>: Neon. Like that which illuminates city streets at night.
(12:53:13 AM) < kitten>: Where you're surrounded by people, by yourself.
(01:41:09 AM) < kitten>: The neon is more day to day, I think. I come out at night, when the working class is at home and the socialites abound, and the night's choked with smog so you can't see the moon or the stars, but everything's lit by neon and mercury-vapor streetlamps.
(01:43:14 AM) < kitten>: I leave the office those nights which are all dark and hazy and stroll on these avenues, avoiding the beggars and trumpet players, and try to find a place. And they're all just holes in the wall.

Motions with reference to direction.

Miss FD — Sun, 04 Dec 2011 20:45:42 -0500

Everything passes, everyone passes. The basic set of experiences are repeated, by another one, at another time. All just different versions of the same.

Somehow we want to believe that these experiences matter, because they are ours, as if that gives them greater meaning. Generation, after generation.

Miss FD releases official music video for "Moment of Fade", from the album �Love Never Dies�

Miss FD — Wed, 23 Nov 2011 23:01:50 -0500

"Moment of Fade", the second video from Miss FD's most recent studio album "Love Never Dies", continues the artist's journey through a world of riddles without solutions.

This lush gothic tale was filmed by Adam Alvarez (who also directed the video for FD's playful Halloween treat "Love Magick") on various locations in Miami, Florida. The contrasting images of light and darkness capture the emotional heart of both the song and the album, as FD roams a lonely domain in search of the key to a happier reality that remains out of reach.

Love Never Dies is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, and other digital music outlets.

Settled into resignation.

Miss FD — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 04:14:37 -0400

Deluding ourselves into trying to assign meaning and purpose to an existence we will never truly be capable of understanding, just to keep our awareness from decaying within the system. Something to keep us in motion, always reaching for the unattainable. [...]

Miss FD releases Official Music Video for "Love Magick" in time for Halloween

Miss FD — Sun, 09 Oct 2011 14:36:45 -0400

Directed by Adam Alvarez, Miss FD's new music video for the single "Love Magick" was shot in Ft. Lauderdale, FL and Atlanta, GA.

Background illustrations by Josh Smith.

"Love Magick" is available as a digital release from Bandcamp, Amazon.com MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Dissolve.

Miss FD — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 21:17:26 -0400

It's moments like these in which all of the seemingly broken pieces fit together to form something beautiful, that make me feel purposefully alive and for a moment, connected. #3 of the next chapter has become. And if I don't get to go to the studio soon to record vocals for it, it's possible this song might haunt me until it drives me insane.

Cycles of past, present, future, remembrance, and renewal.

Miss FD — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 18:00:01 -0400

I'm trespassing into this other world
desiring to will your presence through me
so that we can ascend from mystery
to subside the ambivalence within

Drowning in a flood of memories
is preferable to drowning in the silence of your absence
is preferable to filling every empty moment with the torment
of both our worlds collapsing

On the subject of paying for music.

Miss FD — Fri, 30 Sep 2011 18:48:38 -0400

Music is something that's meant to enrich our lives. It expands our happiness, brings us comfort, inspires us, evokes deeply buried emotions, helps us to appreciate different aspects of our existences during different phases of our lives, and inexplicably reaches us to our very core.

Paying for music nowadays is really a matter of principle. We all know that as soon as an artist releases a new song or album, it becomes available as a free download almost immediately.

Do I condemn free downloads? Absolutely not. If a person already has enough circumstantial life worries to deal with and cannot afford to pay for new music, the music which may bring them comfort when they need it the most, should still be accessible to them.

This being said, as someone who is putting a lot of effort to release new music on my own, I am certainly very grateful to those of you who do choose to support my efforts by contributing through purchasing the physical CDs I've had made (for you!) or by paying for downloads.

I believe in paying the individuals that I work with: photographers, graphic designers, video directors, etc. Amazing photographers, designers, video directors, and other artists shouldn't have to work day jobs that they hate, are terrible at, and which are unrelated to their true talents, just to be able to pay the bills. They should be paid to do what they are best at and enjoy the most, as this allows for the growth of their expressions through their creations. In the end, this allows them to produce better pieces for the rest of us to enjoy as well.

Those of you who pay for my music help me to pay the artists whom I collaborate with, from photographers, to designers whom I ask to design my album artwork, or directors whom I shoot videos with. Your contribution in paying for the music I release helps me to pay for studio time so that I can provide you with better quality recordings, mastering, etc.

Therefore, I just want to say thank you to all of you who are aware of this, and pay for music as a matter of principle, and not out of obligation. It is certainly appreciated.

-FD!

Miss FD Releases Kitschy New Single "Love Magick" as a Seasonal Treat

Miss FD — Wed, 28 Sep 2011 21:52:11 -0400

As we swing into October, dark electro artist Miss FD has conjured a new single to ring in the Halloween season. Topping off her secret recipe of macabre melodies with a sprinkle of creepy kitsch, available now, is the track "Love Magick", featuring bewitching cover artwork by comic book author & artist Chandra Free (The God Machine).

But that's not all: Miss FD will soon be serving up another Halloween treat. Stay tuned to find out if FD will be able to escape being eaten alive by killer zombies in the upcoming release of Miss FD's "Love Magick" music video.

Shot in Ft. Lauderdale, FL by director Adam Alvarez, the new clip will make its world premiere next week! In the meantime, you can get a little taste in the teaser below...

"Love Magick" is available as a digital release from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, FiXT, and other digital music outlets.

Irius noveralus diabelus.

Miss FD — Mon, 26 Sep 2011 16:54:26 -0400

Dream extraction: Irius noveralus diabelus.

The background was carved out and with the fingertips of my left hand I could feel the texture and edges of the letters in basso-rilievo.

Meaning: Unknown.

Grave hearts.

Miss FD — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 23:14:54 -0400

Retracing steps, aching for atonement and closure, although the outcome will always be inevitably unchangeable. [...]

Miss FD vs. Killer Zombies

Miss FD — Sat, 17 Sep 2011 23:17:52 -0400

Photo by Adam Alvarez

October kitsch.

Miss FD — Tue, 30 Aug 2011 19:40:24 -0400

October is once again right around the corner and as tradition would have it, I've made another kitschy song as this year's seasonal treat.

Further details will be posted soon, but I'm quite excited to announce that the cover artwork for the upcoming digital release has been designed by the lovely Chandra Free, author and artist of The God Machine [comic book].

My fluffy slippers.

Miss FD — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 16:57:11 -0400

There are days in which I feel that with every thought, I'm endangering the illusion of our rules within this simulation.

Music Video for Negaverse featured by FEARnet.

Miss FD — Fri, 12 Aug 2011 01:37:33 -0400

Great feature of the Negaverse music video by FEARnet!

Miss FD Premieres Official Music Video for "Negaverse"

Miss FD — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 17:33:12 -0400

Miss FD's latest visual offering comes from her album Love Never Dies, the darker counterpart to her 2010 release Monsters in the Industry.

Released on Valentine's Day 2011, Love Never Dies is a musical exploration of loss, pain, and despair and "Negaverse" captures that journey from anguish to anger through a combination of pensive and chaotic visuals, soft melodies, and brutal beats.

"Negaverse" was shot at Respectable Street Cafe in West Palm Beach, FL, USA.

Love Never Dies is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, and other digital music outlets.

These connections leave me feeling disconnected.

Miss FD — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 00:03:36 -0400

At some point, it would be expected that a sense of acceptance, even if in the form of resignation, would settle in. But as time passes, the days prove only to be a constant reminder of an existence tainted with a desperate sense of missing which cannot be fulfilled.

Moment of Fade Video Shoot: Keys

Miss FD — Fri, 29 Jul 2011 21:05:03 -0400

Je Ne Sais Quoi - Photos by Blast Em Photography

Miss FD — Wed, 27 Jul 2011 00:12:08 -0400

Je Ne Sais Quoi
New set of photos by Blast Em Photography posted to the images section.

MUA: Crystal Cadahia

Premiere of Miss FD's music video for Negaverse.

Miss FD — Thu, 21 Jul 2011 20:28:46 -0400

On Thursday, August 4, 2011 at 8:00pm, Miss FD will premiere the official music video for the song "Negaverse" from the album Love Never Dies at www.MissFD.com

Empusa ft. Miss FD - Article on Side-Line Music Magazine

Miss FD — Tue, 19 Jul 2011 23:12:17 -0400

Empusa ft. Miss FD article featured in Side-Line Music Magazine for the inclusion of the song "Burned" on the Face the Beat: Vol. 1 compilation.

Fan art! LND and MITI sketches by Lyam.

Miss FD — Mon, 18 Jul 2011 22:06:09 -0400

Side-Line Magazine compilation: Face the Beat - Vol. 1

Miss FD — Mon, 04 Jul 2011 15:04:19 -0400

Included in Side-Line Magazine's Face the Beat Vol. 1 various artists compilation is the Empusa ft. Miss FD collaboration song "Burned".

The compilation is now available as a free download exclusively from Side-Line Magazine's Facebook Page.

Plausibly impossible possibilities.

Miss FD — Tue, 24 May 2011 18:08:01 -0400

Daydreaming of random fate encounters at train stations in distant places. Perhaps a girl traveling with a pet mini monkey will tell me a secret that only I was meant to know. Maybe a stranger will know what the color of the stars in my dreams is. Perchance, an old man will give me a very old key that will open a door full of potential potentials. Or at the very least, through a web of plausibly impossible possibilities, cities will simply pass by behind tinted glass windows.

Falling faster and faster through time.

Miss FD — Fri, 22 Apr 2011 19:14:34 -0400

I'm free falling through time. Relative to my own frame of reference, my perception of the passing of time seems to be constantly accelerating.

One year was once the equivalent of 1/8 of my lifetime in this form of awareness. Fast forward 12 years, and all of a sudden within my mind's frame of reference, the passing of 1 year had turned into 1/20 of my lifetime.

And the days keep passing by, faster and faster.

Will my perception of the passing of time eventually reach its equivalent for terminal velocity?

Miss FD peek-a-boo interview.

Miss FD — Tue, 19 Apr 2011 01:20:22 -0400

Miss FD interview featured on Peek-a-boo Music Magazine.

Inseparable

Miss FD — Sat, 09 Apr 2011 00:59:06 -0400

"They're inseparable", I whispered out loud to the wind remembering your words as I stood on the same bridge where we once contemplated together.

And as the sadness washed over me, the clouds gathered to remind me that you're always with me.

Starlet vs. Super Villain? Photos by Samantha Guss

Miss FD — Tue, 29 Mar 2011 22:15:27 -0400

Conceptualized reality.

Miss FD — Mon, 28 Mar 2011 16:54:05 -0400

Being awake within the dream gives you the power to transform the reality of your perception within the multiple layers of the dream.

On the highway.

Miss FD — Sun, 27 Mar 2011 18:20:51 -0400

Speeding through the lanes, they're racing past the cycles of a conscious awakening to the dysfunctions of this collective madness.

I don't know where they are going, but they are all trying to get there so quickly.

Love Never Dies - Album Reviews

Miss FD — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 23:58:05 -0400

FEARnet Horror Entertainment

SoftSynth Electronic Music News

ReGEN Music Magazine

Muen Magazine

COMA Music Magazine

Midnight Calling Ezine

Negaverse: Screenshot Teaser #1

Miss FD — Sat, 19 Mar 2011 00:59:16 -0400

Something is in the making...

Another round of: me against the world?

Miss FD — Sun, 06 Mar 2011 14:01:51 -0500

It's a game with a predictably dead end when there's only one person moving around the pieces. [...]

Pop vs. Niche?

Miss FD — Sun, 27 Feb 2011 14:43:21 -0500

Artistic expression is artistic expression. If you start making music thinking of where it will or it will not fit as far as genre goes, thinking that you will lose fans or industry connections if you release something different than what they are already expecting because you're part of a specific "scene", then you're already limiting the possibilities of real artistic expression. Make what you want to make and however you want to make it, release it, and let people decide on their own if they like it or not.

Miss FD's New Studio Album - Love Never Dies - Out Now

Miss FD — Mon, 14 Feb 2011 00:01:33 -0500

Miss FD's new studio album, Love Never Dies, is officially released through Quantum Release Records as of Valentine's Day - February 14th, 2011.

Love Never Dies is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, and other digital music outlets.

	LOVE NEVER DIES Tracklist: 01- Moment of Fade 02- Losing Ground 03- Cry for You 04- Temporary Relief 05- Away From Here 06- Negaverse 07- In Love, Loss, and Neon

Release Date:	February 14, 2011
Type:	6 page digipack
Label:	Quantum Release Records
Order Number:	QRR006
UPC:	884501422956
Purchase:

Nothing but shadows in the night.

Miss FD — Sat, 12 Feb 2011 02:16:36 -0500

1:23 AM. I stop and take a picture. "How many times did he do this?" I ask myself. Walk through 14 blocks lost in his own thoughts while the background was nothing but a blur, in this city full of fancy buildings and beautiful people. The red blinking hand suggests I should stop, but I look both ways and cross the street anyway. It's 27 degrees Fahrenheit outside, but I'm not cold and I just keep on walking.

Come to nothing.

Miss FD — Wed, 09 Feb 2011 10:27:48 -0500

If I "don't lose hope", then I'll just be continuing to further set myself up for disappointment.

And it's the constant disappointment that crushes the life out of me.

Broken screens and broken dreams.

Miss FD — Tue, 25 Jan 2011 22:47:56 -0500

Maybe I still resent the Universe for tomorrow one year ago, and the 3 weeks that followed. Maybe one day I'll awaken to look back upon this with a higher sense of wisdom and understanding, but that day, is not today. [...]

Love Never Dies Photos by Cannibalized.

Miss FD — Sat, 15 Jan 2011 12:59:05 -0500

Photos by Cannibalized from the Love Never Dies photo shoot posted to the images section.

Miss FD Releasing Love Never Dies on Valentine's Day

Miss FD — Wed, 05 Jan 2011 20:36:35 -0500

On February 14, 2011 - Valentine's Day - dark electro artist Miss FD will release Love Never Dies, the emotionally intense follow-up to her debut release Monsters in the Industry. Where the first album captured a personal journey through darkness and into light, FD's latest creation sets out in the opposite direction, venturing through the mirror into a shadow world of anguish and despair, of riddles with no answers.

With Love Never Dies, Miss FD's music and lyrics take a much darker turn - even the title itself is an ironic stab at the heart of the romantic ideal. Far from a collection of love songs, instead these seven tracks spin a tale of emotional devastation, using unconventional melodies, haunted vocals and disturbing beats unlike anything you've heard from FD before.

Love Never Dies will be available in CD and digital format and can be pre-ordered from www.MissFD.com.

01-01-11

Miss FD — Sat, 01 Jan 2011 22:46:17 -0500

Nothing but human-made abstractions used as psychological pace setters. Time doesn't just magically reset itself at the turn of a fictional number. [...]

New photos by Dangerously Dolly.

Miss FD — Thu, 30 Dec 2010 21:30:57 -0500

New set of photos posted to the images section.

Photos by Dangerously Dolly.

Until that is all there is.

Miss FD — Fri, 17 Dec 2010 00:24:36 -0500

Perhaps lost, eternally, in a loop of a moment that has already passed, dreaming it over and over, until that is all there is.

Darker and darker turns this frame of mind.

Without skills, without faith, I am at point zero.

Morning.

Miss FD — Sun, 12 Dec 2010 11:10:27 -0500

If only I could fall back, fall back to sleep. For dreams with you outweigh the waking world without you. [...]

Best electronic albums of 2010 on SoftSynth.

Miss FD — Sat, 11 Dec 2010 23:45:12 -0500

MITI was listed as #7 for the 10 best electronic albums of 2010 on SoftSynth!

Drowning in the silence of your absence.

Miss FD — Fri, 03 Dec 2010 20:20:06 -0500

We, didn't write all the stories. We didn't write all the songs and poems, we didn't shoot all the movies.

Which means, there are others who know just what it feels like to exist in this frame of mind, to be consumed by the same torments.

Yet, where are all these others?

Hurt turns into apathy, turns into hurt, turns into apathy, turns into...

Miss FD — Fri, 03 Dec 2010 20:01:49 -0500

It has all been written before, it has all been said more eloquently by others before. Yet often, I delude myself into thinking that my output has some sort of value.

I, am just adding more worthless noise into an already noise polluted world.

Beautiful noise, some will tell me.

But I know that- it's only beautiful, because it makes no difference.

LND.

Miss FD — Fri, 19 Nov 2010 15:52:38 -0500

Hopelessness. Anxiety. Tragedy. Temporary relief. Despair. Anger. Resignation. [...]

Today, in consciousness.

Miss FD — Thu, 18 Nov 2010 16:53:51 -0500

This morning I woke up in this body containing all of the memories of the life that has been lived through it. In this moment in consciousness, I have access to all of the memories of the thought processes that have transpired within it.

What should I make of all the information stored within this body? If I am not bound to continue the same pattern of experiences that has been lived through it, what choices do I wish to make to add to or change the reality experienced within this form?

As if I could somehow be resuscitated.

Miss FD — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 09:43:32 -0500

Make it somehow better. Blur the grey away. Rip into the broken I've become until all my memories have faded. [...]

A billions suns, a billion years.

Miss FD — Wed, 20 Oct 2010 23:19:18 -0400

We could have lived at different times, we could have been distanced by galaxies 7 billion light years apart. But that we happened to coincide, that we were both able to look at the same stars at the same time, that our paths crossed, that we were aware of each other's existence and that there was togetherness, even if only for a moment in time, well, that alone was privilege enough to make this lifetime worthwhile.

Together in paradox.

Miss FD — Tue, 19 Oct 2010 22:24:51 -0400

Trapped in the machinations of our inner states of isolation (alone), knowing that there are others, who share the same condition.

"To have someone who knows what it is like. How isolated then are we truly?"

The words resonate, but fail to bring any manner of comfort.

Apocalyptic Glam Era Photos by Blast Em Photography.

Miss FD — Wed, 13 Oct 2010 20:29:22 -0400

New set of photos posted to the images section.

Photos by Blast Em Photography
MUA: Crystal Cadahia

Until the veils wear thin.

Miss FD — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 00:17:45 -0400

I'm the only one who knows this story. Goodnights whispered into empty nights. I'm the one who suffers it, the one who loves it. Because if it weren't this sad, it wouldn't be this beautiful. It's like the tales they tell you, of flowers that wilt before they bloom. Except that in this version, the story teller is silently internalizing the whole plot. And looking out from within, while turning deeper inward still. Into the places they all write about and glorify in pieces of literature. Off to the places otherwise unrecognized unless one is falling into them, until the secrets are spelled out in words and ink. And even then, still, mostly they entirely miss it. Not many left who still read in between the lines. It's another one of her abstractions, they'll say. This is yet another moment which she chooses to be detached from, they'll conclude. Not detached. This isn't detached. This is immersed to the deepest level, to an almost relative absolute. These are the tides beneath the layer of serenity, these are the fires that burn underneath the skin. This is the chaos, and torment, and trapped condition of longing, silenced only by the glamouries worn, until the veils wear thin.

Until the veils wear thin.

Miss FD — Thu, 07 Oct 2010 00:17:45 -0400

Fires on the Shore - Live at Triton Festival NY.

Miss FD — Mon, 20 Sep 2010 21:07:54 -0400

Northborn remix of "Fires on the Shore", live at Triton Festival with END: the DJ, Clint Carney of System Syn, and Miss FD.

The "Fires On The Shore" EP was produced and arranged by END: the DJ featuring the title track with vocals by Assemblage 23, UBERBYTE, System Syn, and Miss FD, with music by Souless Affection.

Alternative versions will be on the EP by Northborne, Shiv-r, Angels On Acid, Nolongerhuman and Erektor.

"Fires on the Shore" will be released through Nilaihah Records later this year as a benefit EP, with proceeds from the release going towards donations to help the Waterkeeper Alliance's Gulf Shore volunteers in their efforts to help save the Gulf, from helping to purchase protective gear and clean-up supplies, to emergency office space and food for disaster-response volunteers. More information about them and further donations can be made at http://www.saveourgulf.org

Fires on the Shore - Live at Triton Festival NY.

Miss FD — Mon, 20 Sep 2010 21:07:54 -0400

The broken tower.

Miss FD — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 00:40:47 -0400

Deprived of oxygen, light-speed resuscitations, and ether, something inside has vanished. Something inside is gone.

Despite the self induced state of isolation, alone had never been equivalent to lonely. Always the observer on the outside. Always that detached sense of perspective. The dreamer of the dream, but not the dreamer in the dream.

Feel the wind brush through my hair, trace my eyebrows and my cheeks. Watch the mortals pass, observe as they indulge in their own diversions. See the traps they set up for themselves and fall right into while forgetting they were the ones to set them there to begin with.

High tower, my looking place, no one looking back. It's simply what it was.

That- was before. Now- something's lost. That deeper "sense of" is broken, and no matter what the actual outcome may turn out to be, it's only gray tainted days that seem to stretch out forever into the future.

One event takes place after the other, moving time along with sunsets, sunrises, and moments of twilight marking the pace. But somehow, the scenes are distorted, the surroundings are distant, and the person behind the experiences isn't even observing on the surface.

It was- that fatal moment in which I realized that an unexpected connection had been formed, that an unprecedented sense of security took over. Suddenly it wasn't just alone. It was someone else on the same side, looking out into the world with me. It was someone else that had been looking out into the world with me since always, except that now, we were looking out into the world together, despite the 650 miles of distance between us.

And then, snatched. Stolen by fate, and time.

That sense of security was shattered, broken into a million pieces that scattered irreversibly throughout the time continuum, and replaced by the deepest sense of loss.

I can hope. I can always hope that even if it's not the same type of connection, that another connection can be made. But somehow, it seems more likely that such a fate will never come true. Eons of neon before, eons of neon after, the ephemeral light that burned out as quickly as it struck like lightning bolts, is now only a silent memory etched out on soul and skin.

-----------

Now I try. To transform. The experience into output.

I'm holding on to a focal point: the next release. It's as if I somehow expect for each release to bring an imminent life change. As if I can manage to get some of this out of me into the out there, that somehow the release will transcend into some manner of transformation. But after the next release? Unknown, unplanned, void of desire or projections. Yet I feel like the output of this next release is not proportional to the level of broken. There's no masterpiece here, no grand finale with which I could proudly wave adieu with. Just an injustice- an exponential failure at the quality of expression that should have been projected from the input of suffering. But it's not Alchemy, or chemical reactions. And maybe, the only thing I've excelled at throughout this has been at finding new ways of adding more shades of tragedy into my spectrum.

The broken tower.

Miss FD — Sun, 19 Sep 2010 00:40:47 -0400

The missing elements.

Miss FD — Sat, 18 Sep 2010 23:08:01 -0400

The moon just told me a (make believe?) story. Although I'm quite aware that it sounds like a story being told by a lunatic, here's my recollection of the tale.

Once upon a time... there was this planet which hadn't been named Earth yet. But it just was.

Now it's important to know, that all living beings in a planet by default, absorb all the properties of that planet (being exposed to the chemical compositions, elements, etc.).

One day, a giant meteor hit the planet that was yet to be named Earth, and a giant chunk of the planet flew out into space, to become the satellite which we now call our Moon.

But see, that chunk of Moon has all these elements and properties which the living beings of the Earth need also, as these were in fact, originally part of the Earth. Except that now all of these elements and properties are so many miles away.

So now, when the sunlight bounces off of the Moon, it picks up little pieces of essence from all these elements we are missing and brings them back to us in packets of moonlight.

The body and psyche naturally absorb the packets of light that are at any time most abundant. And as most of the inhabitants of the Earth are out during the day, they most quickly absorb the packets of light beaming directly from the Sun.

So it is the mystics who expose themselves directly to the full Moons light who absorb the highest concentration of moonlight, and therefore also absorb the light that is infused with all these elements we are missing that were once part of the Earth.

That is why it is the mystics who are wisest. Theyve absorbed the missing elements.

The missing elements.

Miss FD — Sat, 18 Sep 2010 23:08:01 -0400

Oh, you little cupcake.

Miss FD — Wed, 15 Sep 2010 21:37:17 -0400

September 17th update: I have attempted to recreate a live version of the drawing.

Storms are brewing.

Miss FD — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 12:49:25 -0400

The lights keep going off and on, due to the storm outside. Simultaneously, the lights keep going on and off, due to the storm inside. [...]

Storms are brewing.

Miss FD — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 12:49:25 -0400

The lights keep going off and on, due to the storm outside. Simultaneously, the lights keep going on and off, due to the storm inside. [...]

Fires on the Shore with Northborne at Triton

Miss FD — Sun, 12 Sep 2010 21:34:18 -0400

Triton weekend in NY was awesome. Met many wonderful people and had an amazing time overall. It's really great that the organizers/promoters of this event put in all the effort for us to have a festival like this in the US.

From the upcoming Fires on the Shore benefit EP, we did a unique live performance at Triton with Northborne, END: The DJ, and Clint of System Syn:

I got to host a few interviews for Noisescape TV with Nikki Telladictorian of Prometheus Burning:

And had the best traveling partner ever, who was responsible for breaking a lot of random things on stage during Terrorfakt NYC's set:

Fires on the Shore with Northborne at Triton

Miss FD — Sun, 12 Sep 2010 21:34:18 -0400

Friday the 13th at Blacklist Bham.

Miss FD — Thu, 19 Aug 2010 15:06:49 -0400

Had an absolutely fantastic time this past weekend playing @Blacklist Bham with END: the DJ & DJ MÄELSTRÖM, and Static23 joining me on keys.

The crowd was incredibly supportive, which always makes the shows a lot more fun & our hosts/promoters for the show were absolutely awesome (I've been craving a breakfast smoothie all week!).

A few photos from the night, courtesy of DJ MÄELSTRÖM.

Friday the 13th at Blacklist Bham.

Miss FD — Thu, 19 Aug 2010 15:06:49 -0400

Miss FD interview featured on Darkside Radio.

Miss FD — Mon, 16 Aug 2010 19:54:17 -0400

Miss FD interview featured on Darkside Radio.

Miss FD — Mon, 16 Aug 2010 19:54:17 -0400

Miss FD interview featured on Darkside Radio.

August - SATURDAY 28TH - Live in Salem, MA

Miss FD — Mon, 16 Aug 2010 19:49:23 -0400

DARQ Salem with END: THE DJ and Miss FD

Saturday, August 28, 2010
$10 - Doors at 9:30pm

Bangkok Paradise

90 Washington Street
Salem, MA

August - SATURDAY 28TH - Live in Salem, MA

Miss FD — Mon, 16 Aug 2010 19:49:23 -0400

DARQ Salem with END: THE DJ and Miss FD

Saturday, August 28, 2010
$10 - Doors at 9:30pm

Bangkok Paradise

90 Washington Street
Salem, MA

Far fetched.

Miss FD — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 01:47:38 -0400

I want to talk about mental constructs and how our minds put together stories, from a whole bunch of different pieces- random events which we connect to one another in order to make one consistent version of what we interpret to be reality. I want to talk about how I've been having these far fetched notions that although all of the different scenes and episodes of recent events would logically be pieced together to form one congruent storyline of what may have happened, that in reality, all I have are just the memories of isolated events, which by themselves, could not validate the perceived outcome. I want to talk about it and I want to tell you- that I'm starting to have doubts, that I'm starting to question if in reality, this was all somehow a master plan to disguise an alternate escape route. I want to tell you and I want to ask you for some manner of confirmation, but for the sake of sanity, I keep dismissing these notions as nothing more than: far fetched.

Far fetched.

Miss FD — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 01:47:38 -0400

Beyond corporate slavery.

Miss FD — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 01:10:51 -0400

There are people out there, walking through cities. Savoring the world, not worrying about Monday mornings. Losing themselves within their thoughts, while watching foreign cities pass by through the windows of trains and buses. [...]

Beyond corporate slavery.

Miss FD — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 01:10:51 -0400

Behind the walls.

Miss FD — Tue, 03 Aug 2010 00:10:08 -0400

Feeling like an addict.

Miss FD — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 23:59:22 -0400

I'm riding on every next song to push me forward, needing to see each one through until completion. In this case, it's the next "record" (of my audio diaries), really. But once the next episode has been coded, documented, and released, what will keep me pushing forward then?

Feeling like an addict.

Miss FD — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 23:59:22 -0400

"Far away" is relative.

Miss FD — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 18:11:45 -0400

It's not about physical distance. It's about our connections and the levels of our connections.

And I'm usually- a million miles from here.

"Far away" is relative.

Miss FD — Wed, 21 Jul 2010 18:11:45 -0400

It's not about physical distance. It's about our connections and the levels of our connections.

And I'm usually- a million miles from here.

August - FRIDAY THE 13TH - Live in Birmingham

Miss FD — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 19:14:43 -0400

BLACKLIST with MISS FD, END: THE DJ and DJ MÄELSTRÖM

Friday, August 13, 2010
$10 - Doors at 9:00pm

The High Note Lounge

414 Richard Arrington Jr Blvd S
Birmingham, AL

More details on the Facebook Event page.

August - FRIDAY THE 13TH - Live in Birmingham

Miss FD — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 19:14:43 -0400

The Creation Chamber by Anguisette

Miss FD — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 21:01:24 -0400

Seven years in the making, "The Creation Chamber" is Anguisette's debut release, an ethereal collection of songs by electric violinist Jyri Glynn, featuring the vocal talents of such noteworthy underground artists as Severina Sol (Fockewolfe/ Cylab), Emileigh Rohn (Chiasm), Jaymie Valentine (Cindergarden), Dawn Wood (Elektronika), Melody Bleak (Bleak Track/Blackpool), and Miss FD.

Miss FD vocals are featured in the song RESET, with lyrics written by Andrew Zebrowitz.

Available from Anguisette's cdbaby shop.

The Creation Chamber by Anguisette

Miss FD — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 21:01:24 -0400

Reality for the hopeless romantic.

Miss FD — Wed, 07 Jul 2010 21:16:35 -0400

You spend a lifetime claiming not to want, but internally, secretly hoping and hoping. Until the hope turns into almost, the almost turns into lost, and the lost becomes the instead of a happily ever after.

Reality for the hopeless romantic.

Miss FD — Wed, 07 Jul 2010 21:16:35 -0400

It was man who created God in his image.

Miss FD — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 21:11:46 -0400

The day will come in which the people of the world will realize that thinking that "God created man in his image" was as ignorant and self centered as when the majority of the population was led to believe that it was the earth that was the center of our solar system.

It was man who created God in his image.

Miss FD — Mon, 05 Jul 2010 21:11:46 -0400

Willemstad Photos - #2

Miss FD — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 21:55:57 -0400

"If you only get to do one thing with her when you see her, ask her to play the piano for you", is what he said to me.

Miss FD — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 15:31:18 -0400

It was a mission to find a single piano in all of Willemstad today. And although it was made to look like a grand piano, it was actually an electronic piano. So of course, she refused to play it. She would not "degrade herself" to that. 5 minutes, I asked her for. Just 5 minutes. Too hot, too muggy, too much sun in her face, too small a place, too this, to that. But finally, she agreed. The bar was completely empty, so it wasn't difficult to convince the bartender to let her play for 5 minutes since no one was there. And in those 5 minutes, she managed to fill the entire freaking place. With the entire crowd around her requesting one song after the next, 5 minutes turned into 25, until she refused to keep on playing in the heat with sweat running down her face. And during those 25 minutes, the entirety of her insanity became completely irrelevant, making this entire trip completely worth it.

***She says she has no idea what she sounds like playing. Because the only thing that she can concentrate on, is on which finger goes where after the stroke of each key.

"If you only get to do one thing with her when you see her, ask her to play the piano for you", is what he said to me.

Miss FD — Sat, 26 Jun 2010 15:31:18 -0400

Willemstad - Photos #1

Miss FD — Fri, 25 Jun 2010 11:45:05 -0400

Enter the Void featured on FEARnet

Miss FD — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:27:10 -0400

The music video for Enter the Void was featured on FEARnet =D

Enter the Void featured on FEARnet

Miss FD — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:27:10 -0400

The music video for Enter the Void was featured on FEARnet =D

Fan art!

Miss FD — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:11:12 -0400

Miss FD sketches by Lyam =)

Fan art!

Miss FD — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 11:11:12 -0400

Miss FD sketches by Lyam =)

Back in the day.

Miss FD — Tue, 15 Jun 2010 21:21:49 -0400

Before the days of Photoshop. Days in which we still believed in dreams, before life started to take its toll on us.

Photos by RickLSD.

Miss FD - Official Music Video Premiere for Enter the Void

Miss FD — Sun, 13 Jun 2010 19:40:05 -0400

Directed by Danny Rendo, the music video for Enter the Void was shot in Miami and Ft. Lauderdale, FL, USA.

Enter the Void is the first official music video from Miss FD's full length studio album, Monsters in the Industry, which was released earlier this year.

Monsters is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT Store, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, and other digital music outlets.

Enjoy!

MITI reviewed on Side-Line Magazine

Miss FD — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 14:33:03 -0400

Killer review of Monsters in the Industry posted on industrial music magazine Side-Line !

8 out of 10 ;)

MITI reviewed on Side-Line Magazine

Miss FD — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 14:33:03 -0400

Killer review of Monsters in the Industry posted on industrial music magazine Side-Line !

8 out of 10 ;)

Rates of vibration.

Miss FD — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 01:43:18 -0400

I have allowed myself to experience emotions. Now in this process of evolution, I will raise my frequencies until I become starlight. [...]

Rates of vibration.

Miss FD — Sat, 12 Jun 2010 01:43:18 -0400

I have allowed myself to experience emotions. Now in this process of evolution, I will raise my frequencies until I become starlight. [...]

MITI reviewed on DarkRoom Magazine

Miss FD — Fri, 11 Jun 2010 15:09:22 -0400

Monsters in the Industry reviewed by Italian webzine DarkRoom Magazine.

7 out of 10! ;)

MITI reviewed on DarkRoom Magazine

Miss FD — Fri, 11 Jun 2010 15:09:22 -0400

Monsters in the Industry reviewed by Italian webzine DarkRoom Magazine.

7 out of 10! ;)

Another session.

Miss FD — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 10:34:13 -0400

My studio sessions are turning out to be incredibly therapeutic. The new material is turning out to be a real step up from anything else I've done before. However, at this moment in time, I would like to request the following-

Dear Universe,

Although I am grateful for having this incredibly powerful form of release for myself when circumstances are dire, I would like for the progress and evolution of my musical expressions not to be dependent on absolutely monstrous events taking place in my life anymore. I would like to be able to keep on reaching higher levels of accomplishment through my art without needing to keep on going through horrible experiences in order to reach these.

I promise to keep on finding inspiration to create my pieces, but from now on I would like to be inspired by a turn of events in my life towards a happier and more peaceful state of being.

Truly,

-FD!

Another session.

Miss FD — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 10:34:13 -0400

Back to the studio.

Miss FD — Sun, 30 May 2010 22:25:02 -0400

In terms of emotional release, Friday's studio session was like therapy.

Back to the studio.

Miss FD — Sun, 30 May 2010 22:25:02 -0400

In terms of emotional release, Friday's studio session was like therapy.

New Photos by Blast Em Photography.

Miss FD — Sat, 29 May 2010 22:13:26 -0400

New photos from the latest set with the girls from Blast Em Photography have been added to the images section.

New Photos by Blast Em Photography.

Miss FD — Sat, 29 May 2010 22:13:26 -0400

New photos from the latest set with the girls from Blast Em Photography have been added to the images section.

Monsters in the Industry featured on FEARnet!

Miss FD — Fri, 21 May 2010 18:50:28 -0400

This isn't just an album review, it's an in-depth article / interview which includes quite a lot of insight into Monsters in the Industry. And it totally made my day!

Miss FD feature article on FEARnet.

Monsters in the Industry featured on FEARnet!

Miss FD — Fri, 21 May 2010 18:50:28 -0400

Monsters in the Industry - Downloads vs. Physical CDs?

Miss FD — Thu, 20 May 2010 19:34:14 -0400

Yes, yes. It's certainly a lot easier to just download music. Saves space, makes the music easily accessible from your various devices, and best of all, no scratched up CDs.

If that's how you rather have your music, Monsters in the Industry is available through:

iTunes, Amazon MP3, and other digital media outlets.

But...

I know that some of you still appreciate being able to look through the artwork, being able to read all of the lyrics, and being able to grasp in more depth the concepts behind the album. If at this point you're totally raising your hand and yelling "That's me!", then I would definitely encourage you to get the physical copy of Monsters in the Industry. It's a pretty neat digipack, so you won't end up with broken jewel cases, the lyrics are printed right on the panels of the digipack, and the artwork for this album has a lot a meaning poured into it.

And hey, maybe some day, you'll be able to tell your grand-kids: "Back in MY day, we used to have these things called CDs..." At which point of course, you'll pull out your handy dandy copy of Monsters in the Industry for demonstration purposes =p

Okay, I'll stop rambling now.

If you want the physical CD, it's available from:

FiXT

AMAZON.com

And of course, from the shop in my very own website:

Miss FD's Shop

Monsters in the Industry - Downloads vs. Physical CDs?

Miss FD — Thu, 20 May 2010 19:34:14 -0400

MITI Reviewed on the Broward New Times

Miss FD — Thu, 20 May 2010 18:53:59 -0400

Monsters in the Industry reviewed in The Broward New Times.

MITI Reviewed on the Broward New Times

Miss FD — Thu, 20 May 2010 18:53:59 -0400

Monsters in the Industry reviewed in The Broward New Times.

MITI reviewed on Terrorverlag

Miss FD — Wed, 19 May 2010 17:45:39 -0400

Awesome review of Monsters in the Industry posted today in German Alternative Music Webzine: Terrorverlag!

MITI reviewed on Terrorverlag

Miss FD — Wed, 19 May 2010 17:45:39 -0400

Awesome review of Monsters in the Industry posted today in German Alternative Music Webzine: Terrorverlag!

It was when you needed me the most, that I failed you- and myself.

Miss FD — Mon, 17 May 2010 00:20:23 -0400

My current perception of "now", leaves me feeling unable to forgive myself for failing you. The knowledge and skill needed were present in order to influence a different outcome, but instead, I allowed myself to drown in a sea of confusion caused by emotions. Through the noise created by the overwhelming sense of despair, neither quantum nor entanglement could pierce through the threshold of superpositions that were one by one, collapsing into their ultimate state of doom.

It was when you needed me the most, that I failed you- and myself.

Miss FD — Mon, 17 May 2010 00:20:23 -0400

Levels of dreaming.

Miss FD — Sun, 16 May 2010 00:23:10 -0400

In Quantum and Chaos, searching for a way to reconstruct my interpretation of reality. [...]

Levels of dreaming.

Miss FD — Sun, 16 May 2010 00:23:10 -0400

In Quantum and Chaos, searching for a way to reconstruct my interpretation of reality. [...]

MITI reviewed on Gootti

Miss FD — Mon, 03 May 2010 22:40:13 -0400

Monsters in the Industry comparable to Lady Gaga and Britney Spears? Uh-oh! Finnish website Gootti seems to think so!

Still, 3 out of 5! ;)

MITI reviewed on Gootti

Miss FD — Mon, 03 May 2010 22:40:13 -0400

Monsters in the Industry comparable to Lady Gaga and Britney Spears? Uh-oh! Finnish website Gootti seems to think so!

Still, 3 out of 5! ;)

Silly girl.

Miss FD — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 19:58:32 -0400

I got lost for a moment and deluded myself into thinking that maybe I also, could indulge in experiencing a sense of comfort within the dream. But in reality, that was not intended as the purpose of my existence. I'll play my role here until my time is up, in helping others reach towards their higher potential. Eventually, the moment will come in which I'll fade back into the greater consciousness of all that is.

Silly girl.

Miss FD — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 19:58:32 -0400

There's no place like home.

Miss FD — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 15:35:14 -0400

Lately I feel like I'm just dragging myself through life. I feel tired as I lose more and more interest everyday. But I keep reminding myself that one day, it will all inevitably end anyway. For myself, for this world, for all of our illusions. So I might as well just experience this while it lasts, during the time that has been allotted for my consciousness to exist in its present form. It's all ephemeral, in the grander scheme of things.

Still...

I feel like I just want to go home, except that I don't even know where home is.

There's no place like home.

Miss FD — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 15:35:14 -0400

MITI reviewed on Brutal Resonance

Miss FD — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 13:47:01 -0400

Monsters in the Industry was reviewed on Brutal Resonance. This is the first MITI review posted, so it's actually quite exciting. 8 out of 10!

MITI reviewed on Brutal Resonance

Miss FD — Wed, 28 Apr 2010 13:47:01 -0400

Monsters in the Industry was reviewed on Brutal Resonance. This is the first MITI review posted, so it's actually quite exciting. 8 out of 10!

The strong people.

Miss FD — Sun, 18 Apr 2010 22:15:28 -0400

"You are the strongest person I know."
"If there's anyone who can handle a situation like this, I know that you can."
"You will come out of this even stronger, just like you always do".
"You will channel it into artistic expression."

Even from those whom I have been acquainted with for years, these are the comments I get, over and over again.

This is precisely one of the reasons why I miss kitten so much. Even though he considered me to be an incredibly "strong" person, he never relied on my "strength" to assert for my eventual well-being. He actually treated me like someone that needed caring for, concern for, and emotional support, which he always readily gave to me.

Everyone else? Well, they all know I'll just eventually be "okay". It's what's expected of me.

The strong people.

Miss FD — Sun, 18 Apr 2010 22:15:28 -0400

Miss FD's Full Length Album - Monsters in the Industry - Available Now

Miss FD — Thu, 15 Apr 2010 11:49:35 -0400

Miss FD's full length album, Monsters in the Industry is officially released as of today, April 15th.

Monsters is available in CD format through the official Miss FD website, FiXT Store, and Amazon.com.

The digital release is available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, iTunes, and other digital music outlets.

	Tracklist: 01- Break Your Control 02- Disgrace 03- Monsters in the Industry 04- Wanderer 05- Elements Off Time 06- Rebel Apprentice 07- Dream Door 08- Enter the Void 09- Realigned 10- Thunder in the Blood 11- When the Sun Sets

Album Title:	Monsters in the Industry
Release Date:	April 2010
Type:	8 page digipack
Label:	Quantum Release Records
Order Number:	QRR004
UPC:	884501277297
Purchase:

Interview with MissFD - fIXE Magazine

Miss FD — Mon, 12 Apr 2010 12:14:51 -0400

Miss FD Interview featured in fiXE Magazine.

Miss FD to Release Monsters In The Industry

Miss FD — Fri, 09 Apr 2010 00:05:46 -0400

Fort Lauderdale-based gothic electro artist Miss FD will release her full-length studio album Monsters In The Industry through Quantum Release Records on April 15, 2010.

The new project demonstrates FD's skill at crafting rich electronic textures, mesmerizing vocals and razor-sharp lyrics as she forges a new path into deeper, darker electro-pop territory.

In Monsters In The Industry, Miss FD sets out on a personal journey through pain, fear and uncertainty toward redemption, inspiration and new beginnings. Unleashing raw, primal power through intricate musical layers and breathtaking beats that put conventional dance-pop to shame, Monsters is a beautiful and dangerous landscape waiting to be explored with FDs elegant blend of melodic and aggressive vocals leading the way.

Monsters In The Industry will be available in CD and digital format and can be pre-ordered from Amazon.com.

An official music video for the new track Enter The Void will premiere soon after the album's release date.

Enjoy the video teaser below!

Force.Is.Machine / Aetrix

Miss FD — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 23:13:01 -0400

It seems like this year keeps getting darker and darker, without its brightest stars shining to light the way.

Another grave loss this year, friend and mastermind of Force.Is.Machine and Aetrix Stefan (Voytek den Ouden) passed away last week after being hit by a car.

His music was absolutely brilliant. His songs have been a source of motivation for me and have helped me during many dark times.

May his music and memory remain with us and serve as a source of inspiration to many:

Force.Is.Machine.

Aetrix.

Force.Is.Machine / Aetrix

Miss FD — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 23:13:01 -0400

Of love, loss, and neon.

Miss FD — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 21:51:23 -0400

It's been over a month, and I'm still hiding under the table (retarded thing I do, as if somehow I could hide from the world there), except there is no kitten to tell me he will hide under the table with me and that we can throw everything we don't like out from under the table.

It's been over a month and I'm still crying to and from work every day, and any time my boss leaves for lunch.

Like a fool, I have fallen into the habit of talking to myself, as if he were there, sitting next to me. Over a month, and I'm still crying myself to sleep. I manage to sleep for a couple of hours, then wake up, cry some more, try to sleep again, next thing I know it's morning and it's time for me to go to work again. Sleeping schedule is a mess, eating habits have been a mess, my motivation has been non-existent.

I'm not just sad for the loss, but for everything that would have been and didn't get to be. For the million and one presents I had already picked out for him for every upcoming occasion. For everything we wanted to do and see together that won't happen. For the fact that he was exactly the person that I needed in my life, but because I am completely emotionally incompetent, didn't even get to tell him that I loved him.

My boss reminded me to start working on everything that needs to be ready for next month's Microsoft Convergence in Atlanta. I had completely forgotten about the damn Convergence in Atlanta as the last time I had talked about it, was when I had excitedly told kitten that we had signed up to be exhibitors and that I would get to visit him in April. So far away he said =(

The release date for my next album is already set for next month, April 15th (it was supposed to be for the beginning of this month, but well, clearly I haven't been able to get myself sufficiently together in time to make that happen). Thanks to Amazon already listing it as available for pre-order, now I kind of just have to stick to getting everything ready in time to make it happen. Except that as much work as I've put into this for over the past year pouring my heart and soul into it, my heart's not in it at the moment. I don't even want to breathe right now, let alone have to be enthused about promoting a new album when I just feel like the one chance at happiness that I may have had in life, just slipped through my fingers, so unnecessarily.

I mean when two people decide that things aren't working out and they want to part with each other, it's one thing, it has to be accepted, respected as a mutual decision, or even if it's just from one person's behalf. But this? How can I come to terms with this when it's not what either of us would have wanted? I was the one always bringing up cyanide, for MYSELF. kitten was always the one to remind me that the world needed someone like me in it. HE wasn't the one that was supposed to go.

I had all the artwork for the album completed and submitted before kitten went into the hospital. He had already heard all the songs, I had already sent him the cover as a preview. He asked to see the rest of it, I refused to show him. I wanted him to have something that he could touch and feel as a finished product once the copies were printed, instead of just sending him some JPG file. He never got to see the finished product.

I thought of all sorts of stupid possible problems, because that's just how I am, I have to analyze things and think about how things would work out into the future, even if it's nowhere near that point. I thought I would be allergic to his cats (I'm allergic to the majority of cats). He told me that was a genuine concern, but that we could worry about that when we actually got to that point. It turned out I wasn't even allergic to them. That, and a million other little things which all would have worked out.

I'm admittedly driving myself crazy with this. Replaying every moment, every conversation we had in my mind like a broken record. How maybe it was all somewhat selfish as I felt that the reason we got along so well was because we were so much alike in so many ways. For once, I found someone who complained about the world almost as much as I do. For once, someone didn't think I was complaining but actually understood the reasons behind my discontentment with everything. For once, I found someone whom I was genuinely interested in, and who was genuinely caring towards me.

I'm broken. I've always been broken. It wasn't kitten's job to fix this, but he always offered to help. I didn't expect someone to come along and make everything better, but kitten was someone whom I could honestly express my feelings to, without taboos about any subjects, someone to share happy news with, and someone to also offer support and comfort when everything was falling apart.

Now everything is falling apart. I'm falling apart. And there is no kitten to care, no kitten to try to help, no kitten to send me little songs about space to cheer me up.

I know this is irreversible. I know the sooner I get myself to accept that, the better it will be for me. But at the same time, I know how ridiculously thick headed and stubborn I can be, even when having to accept the only reality that is left to be accepted.

When I was 14, I decided I hated everything so much, that I stopped talking. I stopped talking to everyone, including parents, teachers, classmates, everyone, for 2 entire years. For 2 years straight, every week, my classmates would come up to me, try to talk to me, invite me to go out with them. For 2 years, I stared right through them as they were talking to me, as if they did not exist.

I've gone through some rather dark times before. I've had quite a share of tragedies in my life. But this, this is the saddest Ive ever been. And that, is saying a lot.

Of love, loss, and neon.

Miss FD — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 21:51:23 -0400

Suffering: the underlying program in the system which triggers the motivation for survival in living beings.

Miss FD — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 22:12:11 -0500

Most of the actions taken by living beings are inherently directed towards avoiding suffering in one way or another. Plants grow towards the direction of sunlight in order to be able to acquire the nutrients they need, and hence avoid "suffering". Animals (including humans) instinctively eat in order to avoid hunger, as hunger equals suffering. The desire to avoid suffering can be traced back to the motivating factor behind most of the main patterns in the behavior of living beings. Although we may consciously choose to develop ourselves and follow our paths within the ideals that we may think we have established for ourselves, subconsciously, this seems to be the program which serves as the driving force behind our actions- the desire to avoid suffering.

Suffering: the underlying program in the system which triggers the motivation for survival in living beings.

Miss FD — Mon, 08 Mar 2010 22:12:11 -0500

Someone shut off the Universe, please.

Miss FD — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 22:40:46 -0500

June 1, 2009

(9:43:28 PM) < kitten>: Mm. I hope your dreams find a better mood for you.
(9:44:14 PM) < FD>: the dreams will still be part of this universe. and that's the whole point. enough of this universe already. i want someone to shut it off.
(9:44:40 PM) < kitten>: What's wrong?
(9:45:08 PM) < FD>: this whole accident of creation. that's what's wrong.
(9:45:32 PM) < FD>: problem is, i can't just shut off my own consciousness. because existence would still be.
(9:45:40 PM) < FD>: and i just don't want anything to be.
(9:45:57 PM) < kitten>: In the beginning the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move.
(9:47:34 PM) < kitten>: Can I help?
(9:47:37 PM) < FD>: there's just no escaping it. and it's like everything forces us to continuously be off balance. because as long as we are off balance, then we are moving towards trying to reach balance. so that is movement. otherwise there would just be stagnation.
(9:48:20 PM) < kitten>: And which is preferable?
(9:48:24 PM) < FD>: well, your existence does make the world a tiny bit better, so i guess that's help.
(9:48:56 PM) < kitten>: That might be among the nicest things I've heard.
(9:49:15 PM) < kitten>: But I meant, maybe, in some more specific way.
(9:49:38 PM) < FD>: i don't know. the fact that i have consciousness already means that that was the choice that was made. so it can't go back to zero at any time, because i already exist.
(9:51:08 PM) < FD>: well, i guess you can specifically help by being a happy kitten. somehow that will make things better, i'm sure.
(9:51:39 PM) < kitten>: I don't see how that has anything to do with anything, but I'll see what I can do.
(9:51:50 PM) < kitten>: At least I can make happy songs, or something.
(9:52:05 PM) < FD>: .
(9:52:14 PM) < FD>: i hate songs.
(9:52:28 PM) < FD>: they are a disease for me, kitten.
(9:52:50 PM) < kitten>: I could.. stop making songs?
(9:52:57 PM) < FD>: i don't make them because i want to plan out a song, i make them because it's the only way to satisfy the mathematical deficiencies in me.
(9:53:32 PM) < kitten>: Mathematical.
(9:53:39 PM) < FD>: yes.
(9:53:46 PM) < FD>: that's why i can't follow song structures.
(9:54:06 PM) < FD>: i can't plan out a song. it just has to fit whatever is broken in my patterns, whatever is missing.
(9:54:38 PM) < FD>: everything in the end, is mathematical.
(9:54:50 PM) < FD>: if it's not expressed in one way, it's expressed in another
(9:55:12 PM) < FD>: and i'm just a whole bunch of twisted equations
(9:55:42 PM) < kitten>: So are fractals, and they turn out beautiful.
(9:56:11 PM) < FD>: but see... what happens when i want to plan out a release? all the time it takes to do that, leaves me with no time to make new music
(9:56:29 PM) < FD>: and if i'm not making new music, i'm slowly falling apart
(9:57:30 PM) < kitten>: I don't have a good answer for that.
(10:04:35 PM) < FD>: someone shut off the universe, please.
(10:05:17 PM) < kitten>: Then you'd just be floating in a vast, cold void.
(10:06:18 PM) < FD>: i would not be floating. there would be nothing floating.
(10:07:17 PM) < kitten>: You'd be in a void anyway. :/
(10:07:29 PM) < kitten>: That thought does not appeal to me.
(10:07:33 PM) < FD>: i would not "be".
(10:07:47 PM) < FD>: nothing would.
(10:08:15 PM) < FD>: all these colors and swirls and temperatures and measures
(10:08:23 PM) < FD>: i hate all of it right now. all of it.
(10:08:46 PM) < kitten>: mmf.
(10:09:54 PM) < kitten>: I don't think the universe is going anywhere. It's here. And it needs someone like you in it.
(10:10:05 PM) < FD>: =/
(10:25:40 PM) < kitten>: I am a doctor. I am a taxi driver. I am an electrician.
(10:26:10 PM) < FD>: but society forces you to do that.
(10:26:18 PM) < FD>: like they expect you to be "something"
(10:26:25 PM) < FD>: in order to measure your worth.
(10:26:48 PM) < FD>: i am consiousness at a very limited level
(10:27:13 PM) < kitten>: I guess. And you see it straining to get out, sometimes.
(10:27:25 PM) < kitten>: Why they buy those little paint by number statues. The latch-hook kits.
(10:27:36 PM) < kitten>: Something to make them feel creative in a world where they've forgotten how.
(10:28:23 PM) < FD>: i want to know how to fix it.
(10:30:11 PM) < kitten>: What should change?

Someone shut off the Universe, please.

Miss FD — Sun, 21 Feb 2010 22:40:46 -0500

Number to nowhere.

Miss FD — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 22:17:51 -0500

Last night was the first night in which my dreams recognized your absence rather than your presence. I kept trying to send you a text message telling you that I missed you, but the phone number was wrong and the message would not go through.

Number to nowhere.

Miss FD — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 22:17:51 -0500

May the Universe unfold as it should.

Miss FD — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 22:19:32 -0500

In the grander scheme of things, our individual state of being is irrelevant. The Universe will unfold as it should regardless.

May the Universe unfold as it should.

Miss FD — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 22:19:32 -0500

In the grander scheme of things, our individual state of being is irrelevant. The Universe will unfold as it should regardless.

Happy Valentine's Day, Miss FD.

Miss FD — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 22:42:02 -0500

I woke up at 5:23 AM, unable to stop crying. The anxiety was overwhelming. They promised to let me know as soon as it was okay for me to go out there again. I tried to force myself back to sleep.

7:01 AM - Phone rings. And my phone ringing at 7:01 AM on a Sunday morning, made my heart instantly fill with a sense of despair.

"I'm sorry, but it's not looking so good. I'm really sorry."

Get up. Shower. Get dressed. Stuff random anything clothes into bag. Drive to the the airport. Stand in line. Go through security check. Keep eyes low, don't want to look at anyone. Break down crying when the inspections officer tells me to cheer up as it's Valentine's day. Get on plane, get off plane, grab a cab, send text message to ask what room to go to at the hospital.

Nothing left to see. The body was already taken for organ donation. You can just head straight to his place to spend the night there.

I didn't even get to see him one last time.

Happy Valentine's Day, Miss FD.

Miss FD — Sun, 14 Feb 2010 22:42:02 -0500

Emotionally incompetent.

Miss FD — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 22:34:00 -0500

I've always been an emotionally incompetent idiot. Unfortunately, it takes quite drastic circumstances for me to even be able to realize what "emotions" I may possibly feel about anything. And well, needless to say, this situation is quite drastic.

I miss you more than anything.

Emotionally incompetent.

Miss FD — Sat, 13 Feb 2010 22:34:00 -0500

Jumping through the black holes of the Universe.

Miss FD — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 22:35:48 -0500

I want to tell you, that I don't want you to leave me here alone. But this isn't about me. I wish for whichever outcome is best for the journey of your soul.

I only hope that even through this darkness I can find and comfort you, just like the so many times you found and saved me before.

Jumping through the black holes of the Universe.

Miss FD — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 22:35:48 -0500

I am part of the all that is.

Miss FD — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 22:36:57 -0500

I refuse to be a mere bystander, observing a world following motions of its own. I have to trust that if the Universe unfolds its signs to me in ways which I can interpret, that these signs can be more to me than simple warnings of inevitable resignations. Although I may not know precisely what my part may actually play out to be in the grander scheme of things, or how I may or may not affect the outcome of a specific situation, I choose to at least move the pieces that are within my reach with my best intent, to play my part in the story of the Universe unfolding with greater meaning.

I am part of the all that is.

Miss FD — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 22:36:57 -0500

Miss FD's Debut Single - Together Forever - Available Now

Miss FD — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 08:16:52 -0500

Miss FD's first single, Together Forever is officially released as a digital download as of today, December 17th.

Now available from Amazon.com MP3, Amazon.de MP3, and iTunes.

From the start, until the end - and here we go once again!

Miss FD — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 22:37:45 -0500

Click around and get acquainted with the new site. Updates are coming!

Best,

-FD!

From the start, until the end - and here we go once again!

Miss FD — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 22:37:45 -0500

Click around and get acquainted with the new site. Updates are coming!

Best,

-FD!

Miss FD Launches New Project, Site and Single

Miss FD — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 13:36:21 -0500

Ft. Lauderdale-based electro/industrial artist Miss FD - who established a solid footing in the Florida goth/industrial club scene and recorded two albums (Reference Version and Assimilation Illusion) under the project known as Frightdoll - has officially launched a new venture, beginning with the single "Together Forever."

As FD's fanbase continues to expand - extending beyond US shores to include a strong European following - fans on both sides of the pond will be thrilled to know that the multi-faceted artist has channeled her creative vision into a brand new incarnation.

The deliberately light-hearted dance track "Together Forever" is more tongue-in-cheek than most of FD's earlier, more haunting works, while remaining true to the darkly seductive vibe that helped gain her international recognition. Possessed of a playful - but no less wicked - sense of humor, "Together Forever" represents a continuation and a new beginning, and promises great things for FD and her fans in the journey forward.

The digital single will be available for download on December 17th through Amazon MP3 and iTunes.